I am eating like crap, feeling like crap, and not running as much.
I think my mind shut off after that 5k. I set myself up for that being my big finale before surgery and things fell apart after that. I feel horrible and am having a hard time getting back on track. I keep talking myself up to get back on track, but I never do. I wouldn't be surprised if I gained several pounds back, it's been that bad.
I am terribly nervous for surgery. It is only 3 days away now. I want to run a couple times over the next few days, but my knee is giving me trouble. Why couldn't it have waited one week to hurt enough for me to question running on it? I am going to at least try a couple miles tomorrow.
I really need to get up enough strength to get outta this rut. I feel like I don't know how. I hate falling back into old habits. I am sick of sabotaging myself. :(
I have to get outta this otherwise I am destined to gain the weight back while I am unable to exercise after surgery.
Anyone reading this, I really could use some help. :o(
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Tell yourself you'll get out there one more time as a last hurrah until your healing is over from surgery. Trust me...you'll feel better for it. I have a feeling you'll find it to be a release of pent-up emotion and apprehension regarding surgery.
Okay, enough of my shrink-talk, like I know what the hell I'm talking about!
Get out there and do it to it.
good luck with the surgery. I just saw your photos on your other website. They are fabulous.
I guess with your downtime, you'll get to be an expert on eating habits while you are not running. I'll check back for some inspiration.
Pat
ARizona, USA
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